Erayummanpanky is an adaptation from 'Irayummanthampi', one of the great poets of Malayalam from whose pen flew down the much loved and sung great lullaby 'Omanatthikal kidaave...' (ഓമനത്തിങ്കള്ക്കിടാവേ...) It is a humble attempt to pay tribute to this great poet on whose remembrance my village was named, i believe...
Sunday, April 23, 2023
"I Was There In The Room" Eve Ensler
776: I Was There In The Room
"I Was There In The Room"
- Eve Ensler
I was there when her vagina opened.
We were all there her mother, her husband and I,
and the nurse from the Ukraine with her whole hand
up there in her vagina feeling and turning with her rubber
glove as she talked casually to us--like she was turning on a loaded faucet.
I was there in the room when the contractions
made her crawl on all fours,
made unfamiliar moans leak out of her pores
and still there after hours when she just screamed suddenly
wild, her arms striking at the electric air.
I was there when her vagina changed
from a shy sexual hole
to an archeological tunnel, a sacred vessel,
a Venetian canal, a deep well with a tiny stuck child inside,
waiting to be rescued.
I saw the colors of her vagina. They changed.
Saw the bruised broken blue
the blistering tomato red
the gray pink-the dark;
saw the blood like perspiration along the edges
saw the yellow, white liquid, the shit, the clots
pushing out all the holes, pushing harder and harder,
saw through the hole, the baby's head
scratches of black hair, saw it just there behind
the bone--a hard round memory,
as the nurse from the Ukraine kept turning and turning
her slippery hand.
I was there when each of us, her mother and I,
held a leg and spread her wide pushing
with all our strength against her pushing
and her husband sternly counting, "One, two, three,"
telling her to focus, harder.
We looked into her then.
We couldn't get our eyes out of that place.
We forget the vagina
what else would explain
our lack of awe, our lack of wonder.
I was there when the doctor
reached in with Alice in Wonderland spoons
and there as her vagina became a wide operatic mouth
singing with all its strength;
first the little head, then the gray flopping arm, then the fast swimming body, swimming quickly into our weeping arms.
I was there later when I just turned and faced her vagina.
I stood and let myself see her all spread, completely exposed
mutilated, swollen and torn,
bleeding all over the doctor's hands
who was calmly sewing her there.
I stood and her vagina suddenly
became a wide red pulsing heart.
The heart is capable of sacrifice.
So is the vagina.
The heart is able to forgive and repair.
It can change its shape to let us in.
It can expand to let us out.
So can the vagina.
It can ache for us and stretch for us, die for us
and bleed and bleed us into this difficult, wondrous world.
I was there in the room.
I remember.
[from 'the vagina monologues'...]
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Saturday, March 11, 2023
Jesus of the gospels and me, a disciple or ....
Am Pankiras, son of late Mr. Arulappan and Mrs. Lenamma of Erayumanthurai, born on 28th January 1955 (10.05.1955), a 'priest', a title, am ill at ease with, since 22nd December 1980.
The name: Since my entry in the seminary in 1971, i was called Pancretius, a Latinized form of the name in Tamil. In English it is Pancras in whose name there is a famous railway station in London as well as a muncipality in which V.K.Krishnamenon St Pancras Borough Councillor 1934 - 1947, besides the novel 'Fabiola' by English Cardinal Nicholas Wiseman depicting a number of martyrdom accounts and legends of real-life Christian saints like Agnes, Sebastian, Pancras (Pancratius) among others into the fictitious story.